25 Days of Memories, Day 5

(Me and one of my Malaysia teammates, Kelsey [Igleheart] Bridges.  We were just goofing off on one of our days off.)

Don’t be impatient: I’m the most impatient person there is.  Really.  If I want something done, I’ve got to do it right away.  An example of this happened just this morning as I renewed my car registration.  I got in a hurry and put it on my car crooked…and it will remain that way for a year.  Sigh.  But the example I want to share is this: In summer of 2006, I had a life-changing summer.  I went on a 6-week mission trip to Malaysia.  It was incredible! God taught me so much! When I got back I was on a spiritual high…and as what happens with most spiritual bubbles, they get popped.  When I got back from the summer, I got it in my head that I really wanted a boyfriend.  I had never had one before, and I was 19, so I thought it was high time to have one! I looked around church and locked my eyes onto someone.  He was smart, nice, kind, a Christian…in short, the types of qualities I knew in my head would be good.  So I pursued rather hard and made it happen.  He asked me out on a date.   After the first date, I pretty much knew I had made a mistake.  Let’s be clear: He still is (presumably) a great guy.  The problem wasn’t him, it was me.  I knew I shouldn’t have tried to make something work just because it looked good on paper.  The truth was I just wanted a boyfriend, and he was the best candidate.  I didn’t actually like him in that way.  I feel awful looking back on how I used him.  I made a deal with God after that: for Him not to bring me anyone until I’m ready and I’ll do my best not to be impatient and make it happen.  I tried again recently to make something happen in that department, and realized to do so, I would just be settling.  So I press on…trying not to let my impatient flesh get in the way of God’s perfect timing (even if it isn’t mine, and He really stresses me out with His).  lol

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